Hello... Are you my mother?

So for those who dont know... I am adopted. I have been kind of looking off and on for years now. but today is the day i have decided that I am GOING to find her. I dont know much about her, I feel like she is out there looking for me. For the past week I have been writing letters to her like mad... I am trying to find the words that will put her at ease and let her know that I love her. I dont know what or how to start... I wish that it was easier. I know no one really reads this blog, but i need to get this out in the open. I have known that i was adopted since i was 6 years old. I cant tell you what it felt like to know that my mom and dad werent my real mom and dad.... I know that they are my Mom and Dad now... but being 6 it was a little hard to comprehend... at the age of 12 I looked up every Janet Talbot in the phone book... i asked my mom to help me.... I never called them because how strange to have a 12 year old calling and asking if she had misplaced a baby 12 years ago...(i know how stupid that sounds) Look at it from my point of view i have been missing this part of me for a beter part of 21 years... I love my mom and dad with all of my heart... but I love her too! I have always wondered if i have brothers or sisters(i mean biologically) I feel compelled to ask questions like... Is there Breast Cancer in our family? I want to know if she has freckles like me... If she has Blue or Brown eyes... I know she did what she thought was best but untill i hear it from her mouth I cant believe anything. Every Christmas i think about what I would be doing if she had kept me... I dont want anything other than a relationship of some kind with her... I at least want to meet once to say "hey i am ok, i wish you hadnt given me up....etc" I know that this is kind of a run on thought...sorry had to get it out. I would love to get some feed back as to how some of you would approach it...