New Years resolutions

I think I should share my goals.. for this next year

• Start looking for my biological mom
• continue learning to be a better wife
• spend more time with my mom and dad
• start on the road to loosing at least 100 pounds
• more photography
• more poetry
• crochet another blanket
• go back to school
• get ready to be parents(no i am not pregnant)
  

Here is some of what I have accomplished this last year

• finished my first blanket
• some poetry
• grown in ways that i didnt expect

but any ways I am so grateful for my family and friends they have taught  me so much over the last year lets hope that everything is even better this year

The New Year

I suppose i should write about Christmas and new years eve eh?

ok... So Christmas was quite mellow compared to last year, but i did miss a couple members of my family... My little sister and mom went on a cruise to Mexico then they spent Christmas in Disneyland...any way... i woke up early... so early i was up before my father in law who is usually up at 6 to work on his stocks... weird for the girl who doesn't wake up till 12... Darin and i went upstairs and got coffee and waited for everyone to wake their butts up... we open presents.... I got

•  Pride and Prejudice and Zombies the book
• Toe socks
• regular socks
• fuzzy slipper socks with peppermint lotion for my feets
• 2 beanies
• chocolate mint orange
• The ugly truth
• a new battery for the phone
• 50 first dates
• wedding date
• dreamgirls
• i used the money from Grandma Sugar to get some pants...

My dad is going to do what he did last year... that is just take me shopping for the things i need... I love my family, I just hope that this year is the beginning of a fantastic decade. I want everyone reading this to be safe and I hope your new year is everything you expect it will be and more

:hugs:

Claresa and Darin

Hello... Are you my mother?

So for those who dont know... I am adopted. I have been kind of looking off and on for years now. but today is the day i have decided that I am GOING to find her. I dont know much about her, I feel like she is out there looking for me. For the past week I have been writing letters to her like mad... I am trying to find the words that will put her at ease and let her know that I love her. I dont know what or how to start... I wish that it was easier. I know no one really reads this blog, but i need to get this out in the open. I have known that i was adopted since i was 6 years old. I cant tell you what it felt like to know that my mom and dad werent my real mom and dad.... I know that they are my Mom and Dad now... but being 6 it was a little hard to comprehend... at the age of 12 I looked up every Janet Talbot in the phone book... i asked my mom to help me.... I never called them because how strange to have a 12 year old calling and asking if she had misplaced a baby 12 years ago...(i know how stupid that sounds) Look at it from my point of view i have been missing this part of me for a beter part of 21 years... I love my mom and dad with all of my heart... but I love her too! I have always wondered if i have brothers or sisters(i mean biologically) I feel compelled to ask questions like... Is there Breast Cancer in our family? I want to know if she has freckles like me... If she has Blue or Brown eyes... I know she did what she thought was best but untill i hear it from her mouth I cant believe anything. Every Christmas i think about what I would be doing if she had kept me... I dont want anything other than a relationship of some kind with her... I at least want to meet once to say "hey i am ok, i wish you hadnt given me up....etc" I know that this is kind of a run on thought...sorry had to get it out. I would love to get some feed back as to how some of you would approach it...

2 years ago

Wow can you believe it? 2 years ago I got married to my best friend. I love my Darin with all of my heart. Darin got paid on our anniversary so it was nice. He took me to get my nails done, he said it was to make me feel as beautiful as I look in his eyes. I melted right there. After getting my nails done he took me to Zombie-land. That movie was so much fun! He offered to take me to the Thaifoon at the gateway I told him no and that we should just go to apple-bees so we went and got their 20 dollar deal. Anyway I cant believe it that these two years have flown by but not with out some downers. Yes we still live with his parents but we are working on that. But living with people that don't have my same views on life has strengthened my beliefs and my love for the people that raised the man I love. I know life is supposed to be somewhat hard. Who would of thunk that it would decide to kick my butt this early in life. I wouldn't change my life for anything... except in the money category.. i would die for 5000 dollars just to get the bills paid and so that me and darin could go on a vacation. I know that things are just going to get better... I just hope that it gets better sooner rather than later... I hope everyone has a nice day....

Wow.. long time

I know it has been forever since I have updated this lovely blog! there really hasn't been anything worth blogging about... i am here to tell you about the last 2 weeks they have been FUN! So my family reunion was this last week. Darin Got a week off of work. we left Thursday to get up to the camp a day early. We wanted to get set up and have some chill time just to ourselves. When we got up to the camp we found out that one of my relatives Steph was already up there but hey its all good. We got up there at about 3ish got our tent set up. We shortly found out that there had been some Black Bear sightings around the camp area that we were staying at. We sat and talked to Steph for a while then we helped get Stephs sister Kim set up... About an hour after that Kim said "hey y'all I am cooking, We are going up to the lodge it is my treat you gotta all come with me" so we all went the mile up the road to the lodge to eat dinner. Best food ever! by the time we all got back to camp we were pretty exhausted so we all crashed. Darin and I woke up early and made PB and J sandwiches and drank some juice. We waited till everyone got up and we sat and socialized till it was time to help some more of my family get set up. That was pretty much it till about 8pm then we all broke out the bar.. Yeah a Full on bar.. I have to say I took my first Tequila shot it was different... It didn't just rain on us It hailed snowed and just generally soaked everything but our blanket. Darin and I ended up sleeping in the car after about 5 hours of sleeping on the wet stuff... Saturday was the day of the big LUNCH/Dinner for my family. I got to see my sister for the first time in what feels like forever. We all sat down at the pavilion and ate like the family that we are. Sunday we all Left camp it was sad to say goodbye but i know i am going to see some of my family at Thanksgiving and if not then at the next family reunion... I don't think that we are going to let the rain get to our stuff this time.... Today/yesterday depending on when you read this Darin took me to the zoo.. Yeah the zoo I felt like a kid again. It has changed so much since i went years ago. We will be posting pictures if i can figure out how to do it... if not check out my Facebook or myspace page.... I promise I will try to keep up but I cant guarantee anything