V-day

Hello everyone! Darin and I have decided to wait till next week to do anything... It will be late Valentines and a day of remembrance for me... 9 years ago next Sunday, someone SUPER special to my mom, sister and me was murdered... Jerel Aaron Nebeker was basically my step dad, just with out the paper saying that they were married. I will write more about him later! I swear..

So to my Husband Thank you for the hours of hugs, while I was crying... sorry for having mental breakdowns every other day. I love you whether I say it... Thank you for the endless tickle backs even when you really needed sleep.You are the best! Thank you for understanding how important Jerel was... Sorry for ruining our valentines day with crying for him. I love you!

To my mom, Thank you for the support and the love! You have no idea how much I LOVE YOU... I miss you everyday.  I will always be your baby girl and Resa Pickles

To my Dad I love you SO much. Thank you for teaching me to be the person I am. Thank you for just being there when I needed a day away. I so thankful for everything you have done for me and Katie... you will never know just how much I love and care for you even if I don't show it
To my Lil' sister, I may not say it enough but GUTZ more than ever. You are the best... I could have never even thought that we would be so close I never thought we could get along but I am glad that you and I have worked things out....

To my friends Thank you for the years of being there! Thank you for just knowing when to tell me to shut up.... I love you guys. Thank you For being you!

Valentines is a day to be with or thank the ones you love for loving you... at least that's what I think.

To Write Love on Her Arms

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Thank you

New Years resolutions

I think I should share my goals.. for this next year

• Start looking for my biological mom
• continue learning to be a better wife
• spend more time with my mom and dad
• start on the road to loosing at least 100 pounds
• more photography
• more poetry
• crochet another blanket
• go back to school
• get ready to be parents(no i am not pregnant)
  

Here is some of what I have accomplished this last year

• finished my first blanket
• some poetry
• grown in ways that i didnt expect

but any ways I am so grateful for my family and friends they have taught  me so much over the last year lets hope that everything is even better this year

The New Year

I suppose i should write about Christmas and new years eve eh?

ok... So Christmas was quite mellow compared to last year, but i did miss a couple members of my family... My little sister and mom went on a cruise to Mexico then they spent Christmas in Disneyland...any way... i woke up early... so early i was up before my father in law who is usually up at 6 to work on his stocks... weird for the girl who doesn't wake up till 12... Darin and i went upstairs and got coffee and waited for everyone to wake their butts up... we open presents.... I got

•  Pride and Prejudice and Zombies the book
• Toe socks
• regular socks
• fuzzy slipper socks with peppermint lotion for my feets
• 2 beanies
• chocolate mint orange
• The ugly truth
• a new battery for the phone
• 50 first dates
• wedding date
• dreamgirls
• i used the money from Grandma Sugar to get some pants...

My dad is going to do what he did last year... that is just take me shopping for the things i need... I love my family, I just hope that this year is the beginning of a fantastic decade. I want everyone reading this to be safe and I hope your new year is everything you expect it will be and more

:hugs:

Claresa and Darin

Hello... Are you my mother?

So for those who dont know... I am adopted. I have been kind of looking off and on for years now. but today is the day i have decided that I am GOING to find her. I dont know much about her, I feel like she is out there looking for me. For the past week I have been writing letters to her like mad... I am trying to find the words that will put her at ease and let her know that I love her. I dont know what or how to start... I wish that it was easier. I know no one really reads this blog, but i need to get this out in the open. I have known that i was adopted since i was 6 years old. I cant tell you what it felt like to know that my mom and dad werent my real mom and dad.... I know that they are my Mom and Dad now... but being 6 it was a little hard to comprehend... at the age of 12 I looked up every Janet Talbot in the phone book... i asked my mom to help me.... I never called them because how strange to have a 12 year old calling and asking if she had misplaced a baby 12 years ago...(i know how stupid that sounds) Look at it from my point of view i have been missing this part of me for a beter part of 21 years... I love my mom and dad with all of my heart... but I love her too! I have always wondered if i have brothers or sisters(i mean biologically) I feel compelled to ask questions like... Is there Breast Cancer in our family? I want to know if she has freckles like me... If she has Blue or Brown eyes... I know she did what she thought was best but untill i hear it from her mouth I cant believe anything. Every Christmas i think about what I would be doing if she had kept me... I dont want anything other than a relationship of some kind with her... I at least want to meet once to say "hey i am ok, i wish you hadnt given me up....etc" I know that this is kind of a run on thought...sorry had to get it out. I would love to get some feed back as to how some of you would approach it...