Christmas, and Religion

Our Christmas was absolutely the busiest that I have ever seen....We got woken up by Darin's brother Matt at 7 to open presents so we went up in our pj's and open presents then got dressed. We went over to my moms for a while to open presents and just hang out. By this time Darin and i were both on the point of exhaustion, we didn't go to bed till 4sh don't know why, but then at 2 we had to take my little sister from my moms house to my dad's house so we could open presents there.... Then at about 4 we all traveled over to my grandmas house to eat Christmas dinner. As we were heading home at about 8 we hit the big snow storm if you guys don't know where i live... I live in sugar house... I 80 was a mess... We thought we were going to die that night... But thanks to my hubbies cool head we made it in one piece... when we got home we crashed... We didn't move till 12pm the next day... But I am thankful that I have all this family that cares about me and has finally excepted Darin into their fold. I know we have been married for a year... But my family didn't want to believe that he was a part of their pristine clan... Darin as you know has long hair and a beard. Most of my family is LDS so that is not their view of how he should look... Darin has been raised Protestant and even then he has been exploring wiccanism with me and is liking it...I know that no one reads this so I know no one will care I am Pagan! I am not LDS... I am sorry if you dont like it but it is true. I love my Husband and I love my family. I miss my friends dearly and wish i could see them more!

Christmas Eve At Last

I am so stoked that it is Christmas eve already. That means that in like 3 weeks on the 11Th of January I will have been with Darin for 2 years(datingish) we have known each other on and off for like 5 though which is totally awesome in itself... Oh man do I love that boy... The other day we just spent the day just holding eachother and loving on eachother it was just so amazing to just be there with him with out interuption. We live with his parents so interuptions happen A LOT ya know... But we are getting things paid off slowly but every month a payment will be made till it is over and done with... Today we made Cranberry Orange Bread.... OH MY TASTY... we are giving it out to family and friends as Christmas presents... we cant afford any more than food with love.... But hey at least we are trying right? Well anyways. Updates updates.... what to type.... Darin is sleeping yet again behind me he seems to do that alot I worry about if there is something wrong with him. Anyway, I am looking for a few good friends to hang out with... if you are willing to just hang or what ever I would greatly appreciate it.... Who would have thought such a jam packed year would have been so much fun... It passed so much faster than I would have thought it had. I feel like just 2 or 3 months ago it was Christmas.... I guess time flies when your having fun... LOL I guess that is mostly it for now.... Contact me if you wanna hang.... mucho lubs Claresa

To my Love

Darin, I love you to no end. This weekend just showed me how much you mean to me. Every thing you do or say is the best! Even when I disagree about it i know you just want me to be happy. I am so happy when I am around you ... you are the sweetest guy ever....................... LUV YA wolfie

Die Dye Dead

So last night I dyed my hair red... I now look like Anne of Green Gables... My mother in law loves it but I am afraid what my mom and grandma will say... I know my grandma will say I want my red head back well its red.... just not the color you thought it would be. So as for Darin and I we are cleaning our room... you wouldn't imagine all the random things you find when you don't clean your room for a week. Many socks were retrieved... I just hope that we get to move out of Darin's parents house as soon as possible they are driving me up the wall. Well not so much Nancy as it is Bob bugging me at every turn or at every sneeze to be a better wife and a better person and that I am the worst person because I have chosen a religious path that he doesn't agree with. I know in his eyes Paganism is the worst religion ever. But it is the path I have chosen to pursue. I feel close to mother earth and all that is around me. I have become a lot more conscientious of what is going on around me and I am going more and more healthy. I just don't know what to do.... I am so excited I Got an A for my finals... I was so stoked I called my mom immediately after finding out about my grade and we celebrated over the phone together... I know no one ever reads this but it is always a good thing to keep up with writing updates just in case. My laptop is working again its wireless got turned off and I couldn't figure out how it got turned off.... then I couldn't figure out how to turn it back on.... my brother in law Ben works for Dell thank god he told me how to turn it on.... I know I am really scatter brained when I blog...I am sorry...I do try to organize my thoughts but they all just flood out at the same time.

just another day

As I sit here listening to my dear old Darin snore, I am contemplating life and what is going to hold for me. I just finished my class in Dialysis... I hope that as soon as the new year comes that there will be jobs. I am going to go to a dialysis center and watch the other Technicians do what I hope to be doing soon. I am just nervous about the needles. I don't want to hurt anyone but if it is going to help then I guess I have to learn right? Darin finally got his first check and we made a 450 dollar payment to the stupid collection agency... I just hope that will help us when we go to court... we only have 814 dollars to go.... For us it is a whole lot of money going into paying these guys off. I cant believe we let ourselves get this far into debt in our first year. I just don't know what to do. I want a baby so bad but i don't want to bring a baby into Darin's parents house. Darin's dad is completely emotionally abusive and I don't want my baby to ever be around that. I know I should give Bob the benefit of the doubt but I just cant. Not after the way he has treated me and my marriage. I do owe him a lot of money for helping us out. But at the time he said don't worry about it. Just take it, it is a gift... Now he is demanding like 5000 dollars out of us and he knows we don't have that kind of money. What should I do? I need a job but when someone you trust says just wait until the first of the year and your chances of jobs will be higher, you take that advice and bide your time right? I hope so because that is what I am going to do. There are no jobs right now for Dialysis Techs. I just hope jobs open up soon! I know I dont blog that much but I promise more... Life has just been so hectic that I just want to die... I dont even have friends that I can hang out with on a weekly or monthly basis. I am sad and lonely I know I have my husband but I need a girls night out or whatever... Girlfriends are needed! HELP ME PLEASE! For now, Claresa